Cherry on Top

So...Im here at school. I got back like 40 minutes ago...I enjoyed a nice weekend home but had to come back to work at the hell-hole that is the Radisson until the end of Thanksgiving Day. I am already pissed about being back here and having to stay here all alone and to my chilly surprise when I get in the door....its fucking freezing in the house. My first thought "well its cold out so Ill crank the heat up and see what happens.."...The heat is at 75!! We havent run it higher than 70 so far...RED FLAG!...Right now I am all bundled up ( winter jacket, sweatshirt, gloves, scarf, etc..) waiting for my landlord to get back to me...hopefully I dont freeze to death in the meantime...

Ya Wanna Know Something...

I think that IMing each other while they are in the same room just so they can talk about someone else in the room is really fucking immature and annoying....GROW THE FUCK UP!

...having a bad day...couldn't you tell?!?

Something to keep tucked in your mind...

You cannot make everyone happy - and the more you try the harder it gets. 

It is especially hard though when you are the most unhappy of all. 

For a second you need to take a step back and realize that people can fend for themselves

... they have been for centuries.

The most important thing is looking out for #1... you

You only have a short time here so you need to make the most of it.

Rid your live of bad energy, bad people, and bad haircuts.

Embrace everything.

Every leaf on a tree, every cloud in the sky, every single car in rush hour traffic.

There will be things you see everyday that you will never appreciate until the one day you don't see it...

Don't take anyone or anything for granted.

Realize that you make not be making the right decision for everyone else, but that's okay as long as it is the right decision for you. 

Your parents may get mad - but they still love you.

Your siblings may complain about you - but they still love you too.

Remember that sometimes arguments are needed to keep everyone on their toes.

Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass - but learning how to dance in the rain.

And no matter how bad the storm gets there will always be sun soon after...

Start believing that someday you won't be forgotten and you won't be a shadow. 

That one day when someone thinks of you, it'll bring a smile to their face and give them a warm feeling inside. 

It's okay to cry - and I do, 

It's okay to be wrong - and I am. 

Bad days will be hard...but bad hair days will be harder

Life isn't about being popular, being right, or being perfect, it's about making mistakes and learning from them, taking chances, having fun and most of all, 

LIVING

The Golden Rule...

..is looking somewhat tarnished!

We have been taught about The Golden Rule and have had it instilled into our very being from Day 1 of kindergarten. "Do to others as you would want done to you." It seems sensible and not all that hard to do... except it is. 

I would like to think that I am a good person, extremely high-strung, over-analytical, and a huge worrier - but nonetheless a good person. I do my best to be an upstanding citizen, help out whenever necessary and brush my teeth at least twice a day. But maybe I am too nice and I am in such desperate need to feel accepted by all my friends and family that I bend over backwards for them and - excuse my language - I only get fucked. I change my schedule around and go out of my way to make sure that everyones needs are met all the while completely neglecting # 1...ME! But when I need the favor done I get excuses and bullshit and because I hate confrontation I once again change everything around so that I can find a new way to deal with my problems. 

I dont know...maybe I am not really a good person. Maybe I am a lazy procrastinator when I really think that I am doing well. Maybe I do look the other way when the garbage needs to be taken out or leave dishes in the sink because I dont want to empty the dishwasher...but honestly, does that mean that I am not allowed to catch a fucking break once in a while?? Ughh...

...and I wonder why I am slowly but surely turning cynical and bitter

P.S. - if you care about me at all....DO NOT let me get a cat!! - that will only make it worse because I will be known as the cynical, bitter, CAT LADY..

She's Baaaaaackkkkkk!

Here's Britney's new video!! 

I love it because well I love Britney - avid fan from "..Baby One More Time" through the crazy head-shaving, crackhead phase. Can't wait to get her new album and maybe see her on tour...?

It's Like They Took a Picture Straight From My Life...

I Am Talented

I have managed to rack up $195 in traffic and parking tickets in the city of Providence in a mere 3 1/2 months. Not only that - but I have also managed to get 2 parking tickets in 3 hours within 20 feet of each other.... now that is talent. They don't teach you that shit in Driver's Ed... that can't be taught.

Just another thing to add to my list of why Providence is a terrible place to live. They set up Providence so you need a car, but every street is 2 hour parking... one of my classes lasts longer than that.. And last time I checked so does the average workday. They also do not allow overnight parking on the street so unless you are a one car family... your completely fucked. 

Am I the only one who has a problem with this??