We have been taught about The Golden Rule and have had it instilled into our very being from Day 1 of kindergarten. "Do to others as you would want done to you." It seems sensible and not all that hard to do... except it is.
I would like to think that I am a good person, extremely high-strung, over-analytical, and a huge worrier - but nonetheless a good person. I do my best to be an upstanding citizen, help out whenever necessary and brush my teeth at least twice a day. But maybe I am too nice and I am in such desperate need to feel accepted by all my friends and family that I bend over backwards for them and - excuse my language - I only get fucked. I change my schedule around and go out of my way to make sure that everyones needs are met all the while completely neglecting # 1...ME! But when I need the favor done I get excuses and bullshit and because I hate confrontation I once again change everything around so that I can find a new way to deal with my problems.
I dont know...maybe I am not really a good person. Maybe I am a lazy procrastinator when I really think that I am doing well. Maybe I do look the other way when the garbage needs to be taken out or leave dishes in the sink because I dont want to empty the dishwasher...but honestly, does that mean that I am not allowed to catch a fucking break once in a while?? Ughh...
...and I wonder why I am slowly but surely turning cynical and bitter
P.S. - if you care about me at all....DO NOT let me get a cat!! - that will only make it worse because I will be known as the cynical, bitter, CAT LADY..
